Oh to be in Somerset now Spring is here, to paraphrase R. Browning

Tell me why I don’t like mondays…… Had a most excellent weekend and now back to reality, boo, hiss. I spent Saturday messing around in the countryside; I had to go to Crewkerne in Somerset and it was a perfect day for driving. God help me when we all have our cars confiscated to save the planet – I’m working on a scheme to run an engine on potato spirit, I’ll keep you posted. I realised how much I love driving when I was making a journey from Manchester to the Southern coast. The bossy lady on Google Maps said ‘Take the first exit at the roundabout and drive for 186 miles’, and I started smiling. That’s when I knew I had a problem. So, there I was ambling down winding country roads, birds were twittering, the sun was out, and the place names were brilliant: Staple Fitzpaine, Thornfalcon, Hatch Beauchamp, and my personal favourite, Wreath. Rural England is ridiculously beautiful in Spring; you ought to see the wildflowers in the hedgerows. I also saw fields full of wretched crows helping themselves to the winter wheat. Read more

Meredith Frampton: Trial and Error

William Goscombe John: A Boy at Play

Arthur G Walker: Christ at the Whipping Post

Dora Gordine: Javanese Head

The best week of 2019 so far. I received news this week that was so good, it made me nauseous. Do you ever get that? I inherited it from my Mum, it’s a classic response to ‘stress’. I got the news on Thursday evening and immediately felt like throwing up. I couldn’t even contemplate dinner until 10.30pm. God help me if I’m ever nominated for an Oscar (yes, it could so easily happen! What do you mean I’m not an actress? Have you seen some of the winners…..Just kidding) It’s really odd actually; on a scientific level, I find it quite interesting. The body diverts the blood supply from non-essentials like the gut and sends it to the heart and brain instead and adrenaline floods my system. When it’s good news, I feel sick but when it’s bad news or a threat, I get total focus as I try to figure out how to battle my way out of it. Unlike a lot of people, I don’t get headaches when I’m stressed. I can probably count the total number of headaches I’ve had in my life and they’re usually linked to a physical cause- cerebral malaria anyone? I highly don’t recommend it. My mother was the same, in fact I don’t ever recall her getting a single headache. But the stomach-clutching stress response? Oh yeah. It’s as good as a genetic marker, I’ve seen any number of maternal relatives manifest the same symptoms. Don’t you just love Biology! So Mum, thanks a lot for the intense nausea and crystal-clear brain 🙂 (This experiment can be skewed by the addition of tequila by the way) More about the good news anon.

Nearly as good was the local elections. As usual I was up at 2am reading newspapers online. When I couldn’t find any exit polls I knew the jig was up and went to bed with a beatific smile. At 9am some poor sap was wheeled out by the Tories to inform us that even though they’d lost 400 seats with only a third of the council returns counted, they were still hoping for a total loss of 800 at the most and 500 would practically be a win, I mentally made some popcorn and settled in for an entertaining day. Read more

Well, last week was pretty ghastly. Not that anything in particular happened but it was just filled with conflict and stress and fatigue. My tolerance level seemed to have diminshed significantly; you know when you have that feeling that you’re surrounded by buzzing bees and can’t get away? The only time I didn’t feel like that was when I felt like a bird dashing itself against the door of a cage. And yet, nothing really happened to precipitate this; just battle-fatigue. So, by last night my prayers had become something along the lines of…. “This is crazy, I’m so exhausted, why is everything so difficult, you said, you said, do as you promised, do as you promised…. (ad nauseaum for 45 minutes)” Quite frankly, if I were God, I’d have a mute button. It would be: “Dearest Father, it’s me again. Let me tell you about my awful day. First of all…..” CLICK! 🙂 Fortunately for me, God is not like me. Crashed out on the sofa, went to bed at 5am (don’t ask). Had one of those wonderful anxiety dreams when you’re sitting your finals but don’t have time to get to the hall…. Awesome. I haven’t had one of those for yonks. So, I did not wake up refreshed. Woke up an hour before the alarm time thinking what the helling hell. Thought, OK, read Isaiah 40 again, it’s what I read last night and it’s a firm favourite. Opened the Bible, Psalm 121 “I was glad when they said unto me, let us go into the house of the Lord”. Me to God, “well, you can forget that for a start” Scowl. 🙁

So, I ran my bath, put in half a litre of Jasmine & Citron bath oil, lolling in the bath, reading magazines, and came across the excerpt above, illustrated with a picture of our products. The very first article in my entire born life that name-checked Alara Apothecary. I didn’t even know that they’d visited our stockist. How thrilled was I? You’ve no idea. And yes, I know it’s Somerset Living, not Vogue, but it is so thrilling and I’ve learnt to count my blessings. As far as I’m concerned, it’s a small cloud the size of a man’s hand. And God said, “You were saying?”, and I said, “I’m  natural born idiot, I repent in dust and ashes”. And yes, I did go to the evening service, and yes, the final song was from Isaiah 40, as was the random text a friend sent me this afternoon. Surely God is good to Israel, and to me also. Have a week full of blessings and divine grace.

Extinction Rebellion chaos at Marble Arch

Easter weekend was odd because I read about the Sri Lanka bombings just before I left for church. Those poor people, just going about their business. It was one of the few occasions when I actually stopped to consider that it is now conceivable that I might go to church one day and just never come back. Usually I just disregard the dangers but this one made me focus  because I was literally at the front door when I read about it. What a world we live in. Same as in all the previous instances, these terrorists or whoever turns out to be responsible won’t even make a dent in how most of us live – the sheer pointlessness of it all is soul-destroying. My prayers and those of billions of others go out to all the people affected as well as all the others living through a nightmarish existence in so many  parts of the world.

London was a lot quieter than usual – I think a lot more people went away this Easter. It was wonderful driving through the empty streets until I came across the random Extinction Rebellion closures. I’m afraid the air turned rather blue in car. Read more

Agnus Dei; Francisco de Zurbarán 

Ecce Homo; Mark Wallinger

Once in a while, we encounter a phenomenon that seems to impact the whole world even if we are not directly involved. 9/11 is an obvious example, the fire at Notre Dame Cathedral seems to be another. Coinciding with Holy Week, it has touched a chord that most people did not even know existed in them. What I found interesting was the many questions that have arisen since the fire: does it matter if an old church burns down when people no longer worship in it in any meaningful sense? Does God care? What are people so distraught about – the fact that a monument with artistic value is destroyed, or is the distress because it is believed to be a cornerstone of faith and ‘God’s house’? Thus far, the donations pledged have topped $1,000,000,000. One billion dollars and counting, and that is regarded as a ‘good start’. The billionaires of France have been subject to much calumny after pledging 300 million Euros on the first day: the general sense seems to be that they are hypocrites trying to buy salvation. Now, I do not know the people involved and therefore cannot assess their piety but even if I did know them, I would not presume to know what is in their heart. I am in no position to judge another man’s servant. Read more